Utterly disappointed . / Tuesday, October 20, 2009 4:18 AM
Brought my heavy heart and step upon th school compound this morning , being worried for th getting of EOY results and feeling indeed down .
I was telling myself before I stepped into th school , I told myself : " Its time to face reality. "
As th morning assembly has ended and waiting for th subject teacher to bring us up into th class , I wasn't feeling anything . Not even a panicking sigh of me .
However, as I was waiting for Ms Rita's arrival outside her homeroom , I was extremely worried for th results aftwards . Time passes , went in th room & th results were released .
I bet she was rather disappointed in me as well , so as myself . I didnt really scored well for it . Even though I passed , I knew that I could have done better if I dn't missed out those carelessness in me .
Whatever it is , like what Christy had said : " Its already over , no point thinking / talking about it. "
Next was CH , I did not put too much hope on it . All I wished was just a pass & that will be enough for me . Looking upon Mr Trevor's expression , it all seems to be disappointing . Yes, indeed, I passed th exams as well . I was overwhelmed at that moment in time .
Everything seems to be all Miracles happening to me . Maybe (?)
During recess , I wasn't feeling well . Both physically & mentally . I was so afraid of facing th truth aftwards . Henceforth , I went to th washroom alone & reflected back to th times when I revised through .
Each night , I does th same old things again & again . Cropped myself in th room of mine , sat down on my bed & flipped through th notes / textbooks / files & other revision materials . Sleeping late & studied all by myself and I asked myself : " Simin , did you really worked hard for th examinations ? "
As I think back for myself , I guessed I had did my part on the exams . Afterall , it doesn't seems to be enough & it simply tells me that I really have to work doubly hard for next year in 2010 .
As I walked towards th canteen , holding th tears of mine & went to get my wallet , did not have th appetite at all . Putting a brave front view of mine infront of them & eventually , went to get myself food .
During eating , clique mates were all talking & chitchatting while I kept myself silent . Didn't wished to talked at all . Not even a seconds .
Putting on a smile were just too hard for me but , no choice .
Headed up to POA class , brought up w/ a heavy heart once again .
Gotten back th results & managed to passed out of three quarter of th class who had failed th exams . Felt lucky , however , saddened once again . It was just a 50 plus range . I guessed during th december holiday , I will have to look up th better ones in POA to teach & guide me along .
After school , stayed back w/ class & went to have th pre-training on th Praxis programme . Grouped w/ Christy , Yp , Jiaqi & Huibing ( banker ) . Enjoyed w/ them , cheered me a little up .
Went to Mac'd w/ th ladies for Ice cream , and headed to Jurong Point w/ Christy & Yp after that .
Wander arnd , window shopping . Nothing much down there .
Took a rebounce and back home .
Most importantly , tomorrow will be th main and major one which 3A1 has to face and that's English .
Hopefully , it will turns out alright . Collecting science papers as well .
Goodluck people !
[ God bless ! May th red heart of mine will not turn to a black heart . ]
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19 October 09 ( Monday )Went to gym w/ Yvonne , Leen & Huiyu .
Did most of th workouts there , its great ! (:
After which , walked from th gym's site to Yishun Safra ; played Pool .
It kept us waiting for a few hours before its our turn .
Tried out billiard & its so hard ! Luckily th person in charge allowed us to swop tables into pool after that .
Playing pool was damn fun ! Thanks Huiyu for th teaching ! :D
Christy & a guy came and joined us after that . Some had their dinner and went back to Northpoint . Took bus w/ Leen & Huiyu while others trained back home or walked back home .
[ Girls , meetup soon alright ? Loves ! ]
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